It was a great time of pouring my self out during the day, and being filled up with laughter and friendship til the wee hours of the morning.
There were also several moments of reflection over the past 5 years of my life as I sat in a room that held so many memories of past hurts being poured out, encouragement and admonishment being given, and the Lord meeting me right where I was.
To sit on the other side of the last 5 years still feels a bit unreal. The hurt, the pain, and the wondering became all to familiar – and dare I say comfortable. But I’m so glad to be out of that season.
Throughout the weekend and even into today though there is a stirring in my soul of what the next 5 years will bring. What triumphs? What heartaches? What changes? I know there will be each of these – though I have no idea how or what, and the planner in me wants to know so I can prepare my heart. But God really spoke to my heart that this is where I need to surrender.
This is the 5th Women’s Retreat that I’ve been too. And at each one, somewhere in the weekend, it is mentioned that we need to lay down something. It might be a hurt, a vice, a challenge, or just an area we are saying no to God.
Normally this has been a pretty easy thing for me to know what to write (not so easy to do, but know what I need to do 😉 ). This year not so much. By the grace of God He has helped me with all of my “normal” ones – so I wasn’t sure what I needed to do this time.Your plans…
I didn’t want to hear this – and I’ll be honest with you I’m not even sure how to process this – but I know clearly that what I’m needing to work on is surrendering to God is my plans for the future.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
I was reminded and encouraged a lot over the weekend. I want to share so much of it with all of you – but that will have to wait for another time (though I’ll be adding some here and there to Facebook this week). If you ever have the opportunity to attend a Women’s Retreat can I strongly urge you to go! Having time truly away from your normal routine and responsibilities is a great way to be refreshed – and move forward from where you are.
I’m hoping to get back into my normal blogging routine next week. I’m trying to write for at least an hour each day, but this last week that just hasn’t happened, but this is a new week, and a new day – Praise the Lord for that!
Be Blessed & Don’t Stress,